Today's Weather

...started out nice and sunny, looking a bit gray out there now though.
peace

And the search goes on...

...well future roomie is still looking for a place for us. So far nothing has come up that really captures our eye(s). Although she did find a two bedroom duplex that she likes and has applied for. It seems like a positive situation as the landlord is really nice and seems excited about renting to us. Although we already went through that with another potential duplex and that didn't materialize. I just want a place that's all, some place where I can ship my shit back and have something to look forward to, is that to much to ask? As it is, if we do get the place she applied for, it may not be until July 9th. JULY 9TH!! ugh! I don't want to spend another summer here, I don't want to spend my birthday here, I just want it done. It's not like I hate it here, I don't, but I just want to get my life started back home, with my friends and family. I'm getting anxious and frustrated. Not a good feeling. It'll happen, I know it will but time is ticking and I have to put notice in on my apartment, my job etc. I JUST NEED A MOVING DATE!! Life would be easier to plan if we had a place already and I knew where and when I was going. *sigh* ok enough of that. Happy Friday everyone, Happy Cinco De Mayo also! Big party in California, not so much here, besides I have to work the cowboy cuisine tomorrow. ;-)
life is wonderful

It's all about the Eyes

The 2nd job...

...so I started my 2nd job this weekend and I had a blast. The whole cowboy theme of the restaurant was actually really fun. Everyone I work with is really nice and I think we all clicked together very well. Although, I was tired! I'm a white collar boy so to stand on my feet and serve food for 9 hours two days in a row pretty much stopped me in tracks. I won't even tell you where I hurt and ached, but I feel MUCH better today! It's hard to believe people actually do this for a living 40+ hours a week! Props to them! Nothing new going on, my future roomie is still looking for a place but I'm going to just chill on that part of it. I was getting anxious about the whole moving thing but I think I'll just relax and let nature take it's course. I feel bad because my school advisor has been emailing me asking when I'm going to sign up for next semester and I have yet to tell her, I'm not going. I kind of had this little dilema last week about the whole reason I even MOVED here to S. Dakota. Besides school, it is where I'm from and my family etc. one of the reasons I moved here was to learn my language, or actually become fluent in my language and while I did try my first semester, it hasn't really worked out. I ended up dropping that class after the first two weeks because my prof. was an idiot and I wasn't learning a thing (she didn't even give us textbooks, vocab lists...nothing). So 2nd semester I took a full schedule and my language class wasn't offered and I busted my ass to finish all my courses (took them all online) by March 15th, which I did. I thought I would be back in California by this time to be honest. Anyways, back to Lakota language. I kind of feel like a failure that I didn't try and do more to learn it, or inspect other avenues that I might have taken to learn the language. They do offer a class at OLC (Oglala Lakota College) that I could have taken but I didn't even think to look into it, I lost sight of the reason I moved back here. So last week, I tell my future roomie about my hesitation (who of course freaked out) and then gave me the whole guilt trip about how if I don't move back, she's stuck in renting a room for the next 5 months. I don't know if I honestly believe that (she just got a FAT raise) but in any case, I decided against staying and instead moving back to Cali. When my parents and aunts and uncles pass, they language dies with them and that makes me sad. I'm not good at decision making and I just really wonder if I made the right choice in this decision. I think I would really just need a semester and I could learn the grammar from my dad and aunts who are fluent. Well, we'll see I guess.
peace

Today's Weather...

...is rainy and cloudy. It's a nice spring rain though, smells fresh and clean. So wholesome, just like the Carlson Twins... ;-)
life is wonderful, peace.

The move is gettting closer...

...so future roomie Miss Mantoan is getting closer and closer to finding a place for us in California. For those who don't know the story, I was born here in SD but basically "grew up" in Cali, moved back here two years ago for school, and now am looking to move back to Cali this summer. So while I'm here trying to make ends meet on a pitiful state job, she's back there looking at condos and houses and duplexes and such. She's actually doing a really good job, she's hustling, on the ball and somewhat optimistic. I just want her to find something, then I can get excited. Then I can feel like I have something to look forward to, until then it still just seems like a dream for me. I mean, it' s not a dream, it's not like I'm some small town boy with the glimmer of Hollywood lights in his eyes are anything, Hellloooo I've lived there for like 20+ years already! It's just that after being here for so long and adjusting to the culture and financial shock of this place, California really does seem like it's a millions of miles away. I know it's going to happen, I know pretty soon I'll be back where I belong having drinks with friends at some trendy new bar or billiards hall. I'll be able to shop at my favorite places, do my favorite things and be with friends and family again. I know it'll happen, it's just frustrating waiting until then. In the meantime, living here is going ok, STILL waiting for the cowboy restaurant to open up so I can start waitering on the weekend, possibly this weekend. Same ol same ol with the "downtown" scene, it's getting kind of boring actually. I've met some nice people in the time I've been here, but like everything else, I'm ready for this cycle to end and being something else, elsewhere. ;-)
life is wonderful
peace

Author of Broadway's Avenue Q is tired of Jay Leno

Jeff Whitty wrote a letter to Jay Leno to let him know how tired he was of Jay's jokes about gay people.
" I caught your show when you had a tired mockery of "Brokeback Mountain," involving something about a horse done up in what you consider a "gay" way. Man, that's dated. I turned the television off and felt pretty fucking depressed. And now I understand your gay-baiting jokes have continued." You can read the whole letter here. I never thought of Jay as being offensive, I find him funny, but he (as most comics did) just had a field day with Brokeback Mountain material, it did get tiring. Good job Mr. Whitty.